The Truth

Everytime I smile,

Everytime I laugh,

no matter how you look at it,

I look happy

but,

the truth is

It is just another lie...

I am never truly happy with myself and

this life

Is there really a guiding light?

I know not...

I had a problem

that has already effected my life

It has burned all my Hopes,

destroyed my Faith

and sent my Dreams to Oblivion

I need someone or something

to guide me out of

my

Abyss of Flames

I can't survive in this world

Alone

I am just like

"Ash like Snow"

To people I may look like a good person

but in the inside

I am nothing but an insulted sinner

that thinks nothing of this life

They tell me

"Life isn't the begining, but just a mear test

for the true begining

DEATH"

so maybe for me

sixteen years is enough

maybe I might return to god early

so if u want me here

to keep me living

just tell me what to do

The Phantom of Hearts

Shaoran Akumu

The Arcana 0

The Fool

The Pain

It has been a while

since the last we met,

I have change in the a way

I have been feeling alot of pain lately

causing me to do both good deeds and do sins.

There is this person I want to hurt

to torture, to see the pain within her eyes

Yet I need someone to take care of me

to guide me to show me

what is right and what is wrong

I do not know what to do

help me I beg of you

show me the meaning of living

without

trust, hope, guidance and love

I do not know who long I can take this pain

so I bid farewell

to those who know me

for now I will seek

what needs to be seek

before I end

someone once told me

"A far off Dream is like

a scattered Memory,

a scattered Memory is like

a far off dream"

he told me it would help me

if I understand it

so this ends it

I will continue one day

The Phantom of Hearts

Shaoran Akumu