One more chance just until my dreams come true...

Nothing is going the way it should
I hastily subdue these feelings of impatience
All this anxiety and nervousness is sending my heart into disorder
Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all

Shivering and in tears, I repress all my regret
I cried all night, but now it seems dawn is breaking...

So, undoubtedly you're right
Even though right now I may try to turn back
And I keep on being stubborn about it, though I know it's monotonous
I'll start walking again, this time even farther, and I won't give up

I'll keep it all locked away in my heart

Until my dreams come true...

I surrendered myself to a dismal emptiness
in the most critical of times
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach
Aiming for the shore
I had to swim for my life

Withstanding the current, I can't even raise my voice
It could have been the end right there, but...

I don't think that love can save everything,
but there's something about your smile
that somehow healed my heart, and in your lips
I found the strength to stand up again

If only I could get just one more chance...

The flow of the river is intense even today
But I won't let go of your hand
I'll believe in the love that's in my heart forever

Until my dreams come true...

I don't think that love can save everything,
but there's something about your smile
that somehow healed my heart, and in your lips
I found the strength to stand up again

If only I could get just one more chance...

The flow of the river is intense even today
But I won't let go of your hand
I'll believe in the love that's in my heart forever

Until my dreams come true...

All I ever Dream

Because of you I'm lying awake at night

All I'm seeing is pictures of you

As I close my eyes

I fade my way into the laws of my dream world

It's a place of trust

Will you meet me there?

There's no time to spare

Come on show me you care

Here we can make anything become real

All of my dreams are all I see

Try not to wake, me can't you see

All of my dreams are all I wanna see

Try not to wake me

Because of you my tries to not think of you

They just end up in one million thoughts

It's way too much to mention

See what I mean, when you see my creation

To the Promised Land

I can meet you there

There's no time to spare

Come on show me you care

What you believe in will here become real

Trapped inside my own dreams

I'm not complaining

Leave behind a lie of any kind

Here it can disappear

My Nightmares

A Reunion

It has been a while since we last met

right?

Well it will all end tomorrow,

Tomorrow will be the day we meet

after almost seven month apart

I hope and pray that all of us

will attend tomorrow's gathering

They told me they wanted to do a pot luck

so that means

everybody must bring something to eat

it doesn't matter how much or

what it is

it the thought that counts right?

Don't know what else to write down on this empty blog

so I guess I'll have to end it here...

Remember tomorrow we meet

make memories

have fun

and

Be ourself...

So until next time

The Pain, Truth, Lies and Nightmare of Shaoran Akumu

Livin my life as normal as it can be

Then one day the PAIN came

I can't do most things a normal

teenager can do...

but that didn't make me to go wrong

It must of happen when I saw my first love

I thought she was an ANGEL

but she was actually a DEMON in disgiuse

it must have been her who made me into a sinnner

After that day I did many sins just to calm myself...

Their were many people that tried to help me

but it was all useless in the end

My life began to feel like a LIE

so I went searching...

What was it that I need?

What was it that I want?

I thought it was entertainment

but it ends too quickly

I thought it was justice

but all hearts no matter how pure must have

a dark spot

Then it came to me it must be love

then I started to search for it

I ended up being backstab

Then my heart fell deeply into the NIGHTMARE

I am trapped in a dark abyss seaching for the light

Now I know what I must be searching for

My TRUTH,

MY HEART

someone has taken it and I must find

A SOULMATE

to help guide me out of oblivion

How will I know?

You might not know me

but, we have met before in my DREAMS

I do not know who you are

What I do know

That our DESTINY is set

and we will meet one day

and then you will say

"Why were we there back-to-back?

Why were we there face-to-face?

I must be the LIGHT

when your in the DARK

If you need me somewhere

and your tears are in the air

I will

RING A BELL

until you feel me by your side"

and now I will be waiting until

I hear the bells.

SHAORAN AKUMU