The Pain, Truth, Lies and Nightmare of Shaoran Akumu

Livin my life as normal as it can be

Then one day the PAIN came

I can't do most things a normal

teenager can do...

but that didn't make me to go wrong

It must of happen when I saw my first love

I thought she was an ANGEL

but she was actually a DEMON in disgiuse

it must have been her who made me into a sinnner

After that day I did many sins just to calm myself...

Their were many people that tried to help me

but it was all useless in the end

My life began to feel like a LIE

so I went searching...

What was it that I need?

What was it that I want?

I thought it was entertainment

but it ends too quickly

I thought it was justice

but all hearts no matter how pure must have

a dark spot

Then it came to me it must be love

then I started to search for it

I ended up being backstab

Then my heart fell deeply into the NIGHTMARE

I am trapped in a dark abyss seaching for the light

Now I know what I must be searching for

My TRUTH,

MY HEART

someone has taken it and I must find

A SOULMATE

to help guide me out of oblivion

How will I know?

You might not know me

but, we have met before in my DREAMS

I do not know who you are

What I do know

That our DESTINY is set

and we will meet one day

and then you will say

"Why were we there back-to-back?

Why were we there face-to-face?

I must be the LIGHT

when your in the DARK

If you need me somewhere

and your tears are in the air

I will

RING A BELL

until you feel me by your side"

and now I will be waiting until

I hear the bells.

SHAORAN AKUMU

Desert Rose

Concrete surrounding...
With a single breath
They are freezing my heat
From the scar, I'm suffering
'Cause I'm leaving you, being
punished for my sin

No one lives forever
forever more
I can't stay anymore

I'm a criminal
Falling out of love
Just wanted to know
If you really need me

I'm a criminal
Without a doubt
You've got to show
If you really need me
You're my desert rose...

No lights are coming in...
But it's not the light
Nor the wind I'm missing
Wanna hold you in my arms
But I'm leaving you, being put out of my misery

No one cries forever
forever more
You can't stay anymore
hear my calling

I'm a criminal
Falling out of love
I wonder how
We ended up like this

I'm a criminal
Always on the run
I know I was wrong
Let me love you again
You're my desert rose

I'm a criminal
Falling out of love
Just wanted to know
If you really need me
So please let me love you again

You're my
DESERT ROSE

The begining

Been a while has it not?

This time I will tell a tale of

Love, Hate, Life, and Death

As all stories begin,

Once upon a time,

In a private school in the country of Japan,

a second year student by the name Akumu attended their.

He was a good student that was always in the wrong places.

He was always caught up in comitting sins,

but he didn't do it because he liked

it was because could not express his feeling

towards anyone for no one would listen to him.

He was an orphen that was adopted out of force

by nobles that used him as a decoration,

for they couldn't make a child of their own

Akumu couldn't stand his life with his foster parents

He then attended a private school

to be far from his family

His life worsen sfter that

Everything he said

Everything he did

was all insulted by those around him

He had only one friend

Susano

his dorm mate and most trusted friend

Susano would always support Akumu no matter what the problem was

but, he couldn't stop Akumu from getting into fights

Then tragedy happen

Susano was taken hostage by

a gang Akumu once fought

they blackmailed Akumu into giving them

money in exchange for Susano

they gave him time but

when Akumu arrived at the meeting place

it was to late...

To be continued...

The Truth

Everytime I smile,

Everytime I laugh,

no matter how you look at it,

I look happy

but,

the truth is

It is just another lie...

I am never truly happy with myself and

this life

Is there really a guiding light?

I know not...

I had a problem

that has already effected my life

It has burned all my Hopes,

destroyed my Faith

and sent my Dreams to Oblivion

I need someone or something

to guide me out of

my

Abyss of Flames

I can't survive in this world

Alone

I am just like

"Ash like Snow"

To people I may look like a good person

but in the inside

I am nothing but an insulted sinner

that thinks nothing of this life

They tell me

"Life isn't the begining, but just a mear test

for the true begining

DEATH"

so maybe for me

sixteen years is enough

maybe I might return to god early

so if u want me here

to keep me living

just tell me what to do

The Phantom of Hearts

Shaoran Akumu

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