The Truth

Everytime I smile,

Everytime I laugh,

no matter how you look at it,

I look happy

but,

the truth is

It is just another lie...

I am never truly happy with myself and

this life

Is there really a guiding light?

I know not...

I had a problem

that has already effected my life

It has burned all my Hopes,

destroyed my Faith

and sent my Dreams to Oblivion

I need someone or something

to guide me out of

my

Abyss of Flames

I can't survive in this world

Alone

I am just like

"Ash like Snow"

To people I may look like a good person

but in the inside

I am nothing but an insulted sinner

that thinks nothing of this life

They tell me

"Life isn't the begining, but just a mear test

for the true begining

DEATH"

so maybe for me

sixteen years is enough

maybe I might return to god early

so if u want me here

to keep me living

just tell me what to do

The Phantom of Hearts

Shaoran Akumu

The Arcana 0

The Fool

The Pain

It has been a while

since the last we met,

I have change in the a way

I have been feeling alot of pain lately

causing me to do both good deeds and do sins.

There is this person I want to hurt

to torture, to see the pain within her eyes

Yet I need someone to take care of me

to guide me to show me

what is right and what is wrong

I do not know what to do

help me I beg of you

show me the meaning of living

without

trust, hope, guidance and love

I do not know who long I can take this pain

so I bid farewell

to those who know me

for now I will seek

what needs to be seek

before I end

someone once told me

"A far off Dream is like

a scattered Memory,

a scattered Memory is like

a far off dream"

he told me it would help me

if I understand it

so this ends it

I will continue one day

The Phantom of Hearts

Shaoran Akumu

Why...?

I do not understand why must this life be harsh?

why is it cruel?

What have I done to deserve such pain...

It is all so confusing

I just wish that the pain in this heart will vanish

I do not know what to do...



I seek light in the most darkest places

I feel like my life is part of a mosaic piece

trying to find a place to fit



Over here I've learned that the country that

I was raised, is an enemy to my religion

yet I have many trustworthy friends there

unlike here, I feel left out, insulted, and not needed



What must I do...?

I need help

but from who...?

All I can trust right now

is my heart and soul...


... The End ...

PH

Will it continue ?

Kimi no Kioku

Eventhough it was last year we parted

It feels like a lifetime since we last gathered

so I take this chance to tell you all

We may and may not ever meet again

because our return to god will come

at any day any night any time

I feel like it will be forever until we meet again

so right now why don't we focus on our studies

than at the end of the year we will

gather together and enjoy ourself

What say you?

The end for now...

PH